I'd like to share something a little bit personal. I discovered about myself today that I really can't respect or abide the act of using destructive substances and such to fill an emotional or spiritual gap. I realized how much my experience in this area still hurts, and how much I want to turn to the Gospel and to my Heavenly Father and Savior specifically to fill an un-fulfilling life (not that my life is un-fulfilling because it's not. I just feel still like I've lost a big part of me and of my life by getting divorced and I'm looking for healthy ways to fill that loss).
My ex, as you know, used an addiction to fill a gap in himself, and blamed me for causing that gap. I get so frustrated now when I see or hear of others doing this kind of thing, whatever the addiction is, because I know that I have no power to fill the gap for that person if they don't want it to be filled. Does this make any sense? The person will the hole in themselves needs to fill the gap in a healthy way or it will consume them. Sorry to be depressing. This is something I've been thinking about. I know that the only way to fill the gap is through Christ.
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Hey--I stop by your blog every so often and see how you're doing. I'm really sorry to read about the changes you've been through in the past year. What a ride, huh? I'm glad to that you're doing well in spite of it all.
P.S. We LOVED the dishwasher while we were at Wymount. When we moved a few months ago, we passed it on to another family who loves it even more than we did! We're hoping it turns into the "Wymount Washer" and stays in the area until it dies. :)
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