Something a little bit personal

I'd like to share something a little bit personal. I discovered about myself today that I really can't respect or abide the act of using destructive substances and such to fill an emotional or spiritual gap. I realized how much my experience in this area still hurts, and how much I want to turn to the Gospel and to my Heavenly Father and Savior specifically to fill an un-fulfilling life (not that my life is un-fulfilling because it's not. I just feel still like I've lost a big part of me and of my life by getting divorced and I'm looking for healthy ways to fill that loss).
My ex, as you know, used an addiction to fill a gap in himself, and blamed me for causing that gap. I get so frustrated now when I see or hear of others doing this kind of thing, whatever the addiction is, because I know that I have no power to fill the gap for that person if they don't want it to be filled. Does this make any sense? The person will the hole in themselves needs to fill the gap in a healthy way or it will consume them. Sorry to be depressing. This is something I've been thinking about. I know that the only way to fill the gap is through Christ.

Stake Women's Conference

This Saturday, I went to my stake's women's conference and it was amazing. The topic was "Be Still My Soul" and the closing song, sung by a men's chorus with orchestra accompaniment, was this hymn. The speaker punctuated her talk about finding peace in trials with music that emphasized her points, and one hymn in particular really resonated with me--Hymn 120, "Lean on My Ample Arm." The hymn was so powerful to me I think because I'd been feeling kind of physcially unloved since my divorce. I miss having someone there to hug and be close to. It was powerful to realize that of course my Savoir has a body like mine and can give me a hug when I need it. He truly did suffer all and has a perfect empathy.